“Love … It’s a nice little trick if you can find it. We had found it. But now I knew finding love and holding on to it were not the same thing.” ~Mary E. Pearson, The Beauty of Darkness
There’s a song you once loved, but now you skip past it when it comes on.
There’s a memory you once held dear, but you push it from your mind when it creeps into your thoughts.
Avoidance is how we choose to deal with heartbreak. Not always, but often we do and we think we’ll be okay.
The truth is, it’s okay to not be okay.
It’s okay to hurt.
It’s okay to cry.
There’s nothing wrong with missing someone.
There’s nothing wrong with clinging to the memories of what made you happy.
There’s nothing wrong with still being in love.
Regardless of what drove you apart, the feelings simply don’t vanish. Anger or hurt may act as a veil over what you feel, but it won’t hide what’s in your heart. The breeze of time will push the veil aside and reveal those emotions.
There is no wind capable of snuffing out that fire. There is no cold bitter enough to steal that heat.
Why would you want to lose it anyway?
Given that love is the only emotion that defines our lives, it stands to reason that although the heart has reasons for which reason cannot understand, you need not avoid what you feel simply because you don’t understand why you still feel the way you do.
This is love.
Unending, unconditional, and unforgettable.
It is that quiet corner of your soul where the endless possibilities of what could have been are preserved, either as comforting thoughts of what once was, or as a fantasy of what may yet come to pass.
So, listen to that song. Relive that memory. Indulge in the hope it offers for tomorrow, and then tell me about that closed door to your heart that you haven’t opened in years…and let me wander inside.
Chances are I may find solace in that room and never want to leave.
Felix Alexander Writer 